| Sometimes I feel like this… | Or this… |
 (Images are from the Disney Pixar’s movie “Inside Out” from which I discovered I have some similarities to the character Sadness.) |  |
And sometimes this happens…
Life. It gets me sometimes. It has a long history of being challenging to folks and in these past couple weeks, I’ve been feeling especially challenged by it.
No one said life or the adoption journey would be easy. It’s full of twists, turns, ups, and downs. Nothing has really changed, so to speak, in our adoption journey; Craig and I are still waiting. There’s the logical side of me that knows the truth that God is at work in our adoption. He knows the birthmom who will pick us. He knows the baby that will one day be Baby Burge. He knows the timing, and it will be perfect. Then there’s that other side: the messy, illogical, sensitive, dare I say, emotional side. And it is, well, feeling just that.
I have to admit. Sometimes I wallow there, but it’s not a good place to stay.
So whadoyado?
Redirect. Redirect. Redirect my gaze back on Him.
The song “Lord, I Need You” by Matt Maher goes like this:
I have to admit. Sometimes I wallow there, but it’s not a good place to stay.
So whadoyado?
Redirect. Redirect. Redirect my gaze back on Him.
The song “Lord, I Need You” by Matt Maher goes like this:
Lord, I come, I confess
Bowing here I find my rest
Without You I fall apart
You're the One that guides my heart
Lord, I need You, oh, I need You
Every hour I need You
Bowing here I find my rest
Without You I fall apart
You're the One that guides my heart
Lord, I need You, oh, I need You
Every hour I need You
Lord I Need You by Lauren Daigel (Matt Maher cover)
The truths in this song are beautiful. I can find rest in God. I can rely on Him. I can look to Him for guidance.
The song was played at church (which is a great place to be if you’re feeling down) this past Wednesday. It was good, but the lyrics weren’t quite working for me. “Every hour I need you.” Oh they were nice, but I wanted to change a word. Moment. Instant. Second. Every second I need you. I need Him every second. Amen?
There’s nothing like experiencing the challenges of life that give ya a kick in the keister to remind myself: You can rest in God. And Beth, He’s there, waiting.
Mm, that’s good stuff right there.
This kick in the keister reminded me to redirect and fix my gaze on God.
In Psalm 148: 1 David writes, “But my eyes are fixed on you, Sovereign Lord; in you I take refuge.” I want to be fixed on Him, the Sovereign Lord. I want less time looking elsewhere. My eyes will surely slip, but I pray the time lengthens between each need for redirection and the number of times to redirect lessens.
Like it says in Psalm 121:1-2, “I lift up my eyes to the mountains— where does my help come from? My help comes from the Lord, the Maker of heaven and earth.”
So, I lift up my eyes to Him.
In love,
Beth
The song was played at church (which is a great place to be if you’re feeling down) this past Wednesday. It was good, but the lyrics weren’t quite working for me. “Every hour I need you.” Oh they were nice, but I wanted to change a word. Moment. Instant. Second. Every second I need you. I need Him every second. Amen?
There’s nothing like experiencing the challenges of life that give ya a kick in the keister to remind myself: You can rest in God. And Beth, He’s there, waiting.
Mm, that’s good stuff right there.
This kick in the keister reminded me to redirect and fix my gaze on God.
In Psalm 148: 1 David writes, “But my eyes are fixed on you, Sovereign Lord; in you I take refuge.” I want to be fixed on Him, the Sovereign Lord. I want less time looking elsewhere. My eyes will surely slip, but I pray the time lengthens between each need for redirection and the number of times to redirect lessens.
Like it says in Psalm 121:1-2, “I lift up my eyes to the mountains— where does my help come from? My help comes from the Lord, the Maker of heaven and earth.”
So, I lift up my eyes to Him.
In love,
Beth
