Craig and I were very prayerful and intentional in our prayers about growing our family. We prayed for God’s will. We prayed for his guidance and direction. I wanted to be obedient to his will. I wanted to take the right step. Still, I felt like I was wrestling with questions that didn’t have answers.
I couldn’t see the plan.
I realize now, that I needed to listen. I was the one who kept asking God: How? Why? And my favorite: When???
You see, Craig and I knew we wanted to grow our family. We felt compelled that God wanted us to grow our family, but things were not falling into place like I thought they should. As a healthy type 1 diabetic, no matter how tightly managed, pregnancy is considered high risk for me. My doctor wanted even tighter control, and everything I tried failed. Each time my lab work revealed I was healthy, but it was not quite good enough for pregnancy. It was exhausting. I’m a healthy eater, I’d think to myself. I workout. I ran a mini marathon for goodness sake. I take care of myself and manage my diabetes as best I can. I got to the point of complete exhaustion. I didn’t understand God’s will.
I couldn’t see the plan.
I realize now, that I needed to listen. I was the one who kept asking God: How? Why? And my favorite: When???
You see, Craig and I knew we wanted to grow our family. We felt compelled that God wanted us to grow our family, but things were not falling into place like I thought they should. As a healthy type 1 diabetic, no matter how tightly managed, pregnancy is considered high risk for me. My doctor wanted even tighter control, and everything I tried failed. Each time my lab work revealed I was healthy, but it was not quite good enough for pregnancy. It was exhausting. I’m a healthy eater, I’d think to myself. I workout. I ran a mini marathon for goodness sake. I take care of myself and manage my diabetes as best I can. I got to the point of complete exhaustion. I didn’t understand God’s will.
I couldn’t see the plan.
I didn’t understand what God was doing. Hindsight. It’s such a wonderful gift and has allowed me better understanding.
It seems so obvious now. God was taking care of me. I am healthy. I'm healthy to be a mother and He has a child planned for our family. It is not in his plan currently for us to get pregnant. Maybe down the road. We'll be just as prayerful for Baby #2. Before I get carried away with babies, know this: God was and is providing. He has a plan. He would not ask us to do something that he does not provide for. He knows the answers to my questions: How? Why? When?
I don’t have all the answers. I don’t need to know. I don’t know how God will provide. I know that He will provide.
Seeing clearer,
Beth
I didn’t understand what God was doing. Hindsight. It’s such a wonderful gift and has allowed me better understanding.
It seems so obvious now. God was taking care of me. I am healthy. I'm healthy to be a mother and He has a child planned for our family. It is not in his plan currently for us to get pregnant. Maybe down the road. We'll be just as prayerful for Baby #2. Before I get carried away with babies, know this: God was and is providing. He has a plan. He would not ask us to do something that he does not provide for. He knows the answers to my questions: How? Why? When?
I don’t have all the answers. I don’t need to know. I don’t know how God will provide. I know that He will provide.
Seeing clearer,
Beth
