​For such a time as this.
 
The line kept popping into my head. 
 
I was struggling to even know how to write this week.  It’s been another challenging one in the journey of adoption.  Craig and I received another “not yet” on Thursday.  I had imagined this journey differently- easier, simpler, less painful. 
 
For such a time as this.
 
I didn’t really want to write.  Craig told me to take this week off, but I knew I couldn’t.  There was a story here to be told.  And that line.  It lingered.
 
For such a time as this. 
 
I couldn’t place it.  So, I Googled it.  It’s from Esther 4:14.  I can’t tell you the last time I was in the Book of Esther.  But I can tell you that I needed that verse.

This week a family grew through adoption.
 
It was not ours, no.  But we rejoice knowing that a baby girl has a loving adoptive family and birth family.  And, Craig and I can feel confident that we did the right thing by making ourselves available.
 
In this adoption journey, we want to be available to respond.  Craig and I have had many recent discussions about this together and with God.  The challenging (and rewarding) part of making ourselves available is that we make ourselves vulnerable too.  We have to prepared for a “yes” and a “not yet” from God.
 
On Tuesday, I got a call.  A birthmom had come into an adoption agency in Florida and wanted to place her baby up for adoption.  A C-section was already scheduled the following morning. Wow!?  At that moment, we had to ask ourselves: Are we really available

​And sometimes this happens…